Sun
Nov
13
weigh in tomorrow.
i tried very hard this week to do well with calories. i knwo i could have done better. so worried. i would love to be 179 but i guess 182 is what i should shoot for. i’ll be so disappointed if i am 185. i just need to buckle the fuck down. god.
so worried. so guilty. i wish i could not care about my body for just a little whle.
but it’d be nice if that happened around 150 pounds.
okay, reminding myself: 170 by my trip home. i have a few weeks i gotta weigh a lot less. ugh ugh ugh.
