time to whine about my weight.
so the reason i didn’t post my weight this week is because it was shark week and i was 185. that always freaks me out man. i start to think ” it’s not my period. it’s just my i’m fooling myself into thinking it is that” and etc. i like to blame me for my problems that way i should be able to fix it.
so i am walking to school every day and generally i walk back home from it too. cept for tonight, it was raining, and tomorrow it’ll be very late and i will have homework to work on.
i am hoping to rech my goal weight of 170 before i go stateside.
but it’s lik 1 in the morning and i ate lentil soup an two peices of toast with jam. that should be a fucking meal. and i just ate it in the middle of the night. i’m gunna try to mak up for that with only 2 cups of rice tomorrow. not the smartest idea, but i am sure i will probs get lke a chicken pita some where in order to get some protein.
i really just want to reach that weight for xmas. i want to look good. and from that point on it’s 20 more pounds. and i can do that. i did to 163… i can do 150. i can fucking do it. i know i can. i am so fucking close.
